This is my 4th baby. 32 weeks and 6 days along. My last one was 8 years ago with my ex husband. So I have nothing saved for this baby. I use to have a lot of friends and a close church family but because of the divorce a lot of them picked sides and sadly it was his. I will not be having a shower for this little man.  I feel like I don't have the support like I did 8 years ago. My SO is wonderful and has been amazing. And we will get the things we need on our own. But I'm just sad that things are so different this time around. Even my family has been less than supportive. Sorry for the pity party. I know I'm strong and can do this on my own. I guess I'm just grieving over a loss of the idea of good friends.