A day ago I was waiting for labor. Now 10 hrs post labor I'm still breathing, functioning, walking and even not crying must of the time. Just as the ladies here on glow advised (so thankful to this community), I spent as much time with her and looking at her as was possible. My epidural ended up not working so I went through actual labor feeling most of it but it was so worth it. I felt relief and was able to forgive myself. It was as if it was one thing I owed to her and one last thing we could go through together. They were able to give me a reason, why she passed away so early - and I actually saw it with my own eyes - the cord was wrapped around her neck and around her leg (so she just pulled it tighter with the leg while tying to get out of the loop). I'm so glad I got to see her - she was perfect. A full head of dark hair and pouty lips - just like my hubby. RIP my Aria, my little angel. Mommy and Daddy are going to meet you one day. Until now we plan to live one day at a time.