I made mistakes in my life please help me

I need advice. Share a story. Lend a friendly chat.

I made so many bad choices. I cut my wrist in high school for attention, again when I was dating someone who I should have never been with. They are scars now that stay.

I gave up on my dreams, goals and quit college.

I hate myself and I'm afraid of the judgment and opinions of others.

I was very religious and was saving myself for marriage. I didn't and after it happened I felt lost broken like I let myself down my goal.

The boyfriend took advantage of me he kicked me out let me on my own after everything we went through and finding out I was pregnant.

It hurts, it still hurts and I don't know how to put it all behind me.

My best friend, I look at her life. We both graduated high school together I was 17 she was 18. She went into the Air Force and told me to leave the place I'm in there's Nothing good in the state. Told me enlist and I thought about the National Guard but I was scared. I spent a year wasting my time and she called me and gave me encouragement.

I remember in high school she told me you do not need a man. You don't need a man to make you happy or define you.

I look at her she went to college and programs through the air force she traveled.

I feel like why did I waste years of my life stuck on some guy who only cared about himself.

She doesn't know I have a baby and I feel sad.

I have stretch marks, I gained weight. I am depressed. I didn't do anything in my life except shack up with some guy. Now I'm living with my parents. I'm just scared to get some balls I'm terrified to grow up and be by myself that's the truth. I'm scared of being on my own. I don't think I can do everything on my own.

I'm so behind. How do I catch up.

I want to overcome the depression.

How do I forget about the guy who I loved. How do I move forward. I haven't done anything since I graduated high school where do I start?

something that you would tell your best friend or sister.