Dear me.

I'm straight. You're straight. We're straight. There's no doubt about it, right? Wrong? Yes? No? We shouldn't think about kissing that girl. We're straight. Of course it's fine to be gay, it's not a choice nor is it "unnatural". We support LGBTQ+ proudly. But we're straight. We have to be, our dad is Christian. We're probably just confused like our dad says the others are, they aren't, but we are. It's just a phase for us. Right? But when we were 10 we thought about kissing a girl. No. We've had about 15 ish crushes on guys and thought about kissing girls once or twice, straight as fuck. But are we just suppressing it? Knowing that our family would hate it. NO!! We can't be. It's fine for others but it's wrong for us!!!! I hate it!! I hate us. It's not okay for us to like girls we have to like guys!!!! Why can't we just be "normal"? Why do we, why do I, have to be this way. What am I? I know what I'm not, I'm not straight nor am I lesbian. Bi? No. What are we, little old me? And why can't we be okay with it?