So...after all the hell my bf has put me thru, im a dumb ass and decided to stay with him for now. Waiting till I can get away safely. Well, today he proved to me that he don't care about my feelings. But im slowly starting to feel myself become cold hearted. I used to be crazy in love with this man, if you could call him that, but now...it's like I don't even care. I don't have it in my heart to do half the shit to him that he does to me. But I feel like I'm starting to shut down. We aren't intimate anymore unless I start it. And like the other night, I had been throwing up for hours, he didn't care. Then when we got in the bed he was all like, give me some head, come suck on this dick. Like dude really?? But how can I become more cold hearted? I want to show him things don't bother me anymore but I can't shut my feelings off and it sucks. Ugh! Guess I just needed to vent...sorry.