Three weeks ago I had a mid trimester miscarriage. I was 22 weeks pregnant, but I wasn't aware That I was pregnant. I had my child at home in my bedroom. He was alive, and breathing sporadically. Luckily my sister who is an RN was home and was able to keep him alive until the ambulance got to our house to bring us to the hospital. He lived for 2.5 hours.

I know that people are going to ask how did you not know you were pregnant. Here are some of the reasons.

1) In April, when I had my birth control put in my arm, they did a pregnancy test. It came back negative. The doctors believe that I was just barely pregnant then, but too early for the test to read it. Therefore I was used to not having a period.

2) I had been losing weight since December last year, 52 pounds because of health reasons, to keep my eyesight. So I never started to show.

3) I never had any typical "being pregnant" signs. No morning sickness, or anything else.

So this was a complete shock to my fiancé and I. What I'm having trouble with, is finding a productive way to deal with my grief. My fiancé has spent the last 3 weeks building a shed. I have other physical health problems, and can't work like that. But I just need some advice or ideas.

That's a pic from the day of the funeral. And what we dressed our baby boy in.