I'm so sick and tired of wondering what my relationship is going to end up like. There's not a day or a time where I'm not stuck feeling lost and alone in my life and it's gotten so bad that I consider life would be better without me in anyones life. I feel like Cody, my boyfriend cheated on me and now is carrying around the burden of taking care of not only me but her and their child. It kills me not knowing the truth and it's become so crazy the last year I don't know where to stop to pick up the pieces. All I want to do is quit and run away. I honestly don't even know if I want or could take the truth at this point but it's killing me not knowing or having anyone to talk to. I have the worst feeling every day. I have no family or friends to turn to and I picked up and left the only family i do have to be with this guy that I'm pretty sure is playing with my head. We had such a healthy happy relationship for the first three years that admitting defeat and moving on seems unfathomable and I'm scared of being alone. I love him but don't know where to turn or what steps to take next. I need some sign or reason to move on, but from him all I is get silence or just simple answers that never really answer any of my questions or reasons of why I think of all the crazy things I've assumed or come across. It's making me sick, inside and out and I just need help and answers that make sense of all of it.
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