I was induced 36w6d and delivered a seemingly healthy babygirl 7-16-16 unexpectedly 7-27 we awoke she was not breathing her heart wasnt beating we called 911 they were able to resuscitate her after an hour of trying but because of the lack of oxygen to her brain for such a significant amount of time she was pronounced brain dead and died 7-29 :,( the medical examiner ruled her death because of a hole in her heart :,( i am completely lost and unbearably sad i just dont understand any of this i love my children so much there are so many that dont deserve children and here i am losing my 3rd child we wanted and anticipated and LOVED beyond words i want another child so bad...obviously my cycles are not back but prior to pregnancy i didnt have regular cycles and rarely ovulated making it hard to get pregnant....anyways i had some spotting 9-8 so i figured that would be the start of my first postpartum period i counted it as cycle day 1 Nd took 50 mg clomid 9-12 100mg 9-13&14 and 50mg 9-15....now today im having some spotting and wondering what is going on! I feel like its too soon to ovulate but ive got cramping on left side could it be ovulation before im even done taking the clomid or did i jump the gun too soon and take the spotting on 9-12 as cycle day 1 and it be wrong? Im confused please help i want to conceive again im feeling so empty just losing my 12 day old babygirl and having all this baby stuff and no baby is so depressing