sad :(

It could be the pregnancy hormones, idk 🙄 but I'm sad. I'm 20 weeks pregnant by a guy I don't want anything to do with & I got involved with another guy since I left my baby's father. I really like him & he really likes me. I just hate how me being pregnant hold us back from so much. We're 18, freshmen in college, we should be out having fun. Instead he's always checking on me since I'm a crybaby. This isn't his baby & we aren't officially a couple but I still feel like I'm holding him back sorta. I know he can leave when want, he don't have to do this but I don't wanna hold him back. I tried to stop talking to him but he told me "no. We'll make this work" & I wanna believe him but I can't. I don't want it end but I'm starting to think I shouldn't have got involved with him since I'm pregnant. 😔 I don't know how to end it on good terms & I would like for us to stay friends. Im due in February & that's just too long from now