And I came to visit tonight. She let me hold her and I just sat there and held her baby girl for at least two hours. Talking to her. Snuggling her. I was so happy for her. I was absolutely blissful the entire time. I would be lying if I wasn't envious. I have lost 3 pregnancies in two years and all I've wanted was a healthy baby girl. My dream. Tonight was simultaneously one of the best/ hard nights I've had in a long time. My heart feels extremely sad and broken right now. My chance may never come.