This is a rant. I am upset. More context might be needed, idk. I am the glue of my family. Everyone's problems somehow become mine. I had my son a little over 2 months ago, and I've had issues with SEVERE ppd since. My aunt was diagnosed with late stage lung cancer in the middle of my pregnancy. She is my grandpa's sister. He has had a very hard time dealing with his grief and isn't handling things well. They had a very strained relationship growing up and ever since she found god they have gotten closer than ever before. He will not give her the space she needs. He is treating her like she is on her death bed and will not back off even though she's asked him to. My grandmother is a very jealous person. She has become very bitter and whenever my grandpa offers to do something for my aunt she rolls her eyes and makes a snarky comment. It's hard to even be around her anymore. All she wants to do is mock his pain and their relationship. My mom has always had this thing for toxic relationships. The man she is with currently is so disrespectful to her. He is ten years younger, and they have been dating on and off for close to 9 years. He interferes with her parenting of my brother, telling him that she's just weird about things that are normal. He throws things and punches walls when he's angry. He calls her a bitch and then yells at my brother to respect her. My mom has anger issues herself. She hurt herself badly at work and has had several surgeries, but as it turns out her years of nursing school and working at that hospital mean nothing. She is beginning to take out her helplessness on everyone around her, including me. Every time I feel like she's close to finding good coping solutions, her man messes everything up by making her feel like a horrible person and all the coping skills disappear into bottles of wine. He just hurt himself, too. So i get called a lot to take him places and to help clean their house. My aunt (mom's sister) is a psychologist, and she takes every chance she's given to lecture me on my mental health. I have bipolar disorder and am non medicine compliant because it means the world to me to breastfeed my son. There just isn't enough research for me to be OK with that. She won't drop it. I never see her without getting bitched at about something. She also lectures me about how I never take my son to see her. It's not my job to make sure that they have a relationship. But when she sees him, she just takes him and won't give him back. Not even to feed him. It drives me crazy because he'll cry and cry and I'll tell her he's hungry and she says it's just a bubble or something and says it's fine. She intentionally starts fights with my mom by telling her that her problems are meaningless and she just needs to find something else to do as a career. Her husband is great most of the time but when he drinks he becomes very abusive. On their wedding night he got so drunk he didn't recognize her and when she slapped him he tried to choke her. He started a job working landscaping for my grandparents neighbor who is having heart surgery and accepted two weeks advanced pay and then spent all of it binge drinking. He threw up blood for two days. My aunt said he couldn't stay unless he did rehab but he's been back a month now with no mention of it. I was going to watch her two sons while she worked, but she literally never talked to me about it after the first night. Which brings me to her sons. She swears that they are so well behaved and sweet. Both were abused by her ex husband, both sexually and emotional/physically. Neither would admit it to the therapist my aunt took them to, so all they have to protect them when they visit him is a safety plan. The little one has tried to have sex with a cat and a bath tub drain (he's 9). He's been in trouble at school for being inappropriate and is very aggressive (he tried to bite off the others ear once while we were swimming). Her other son is 12, and he's so manipulative. He lies all the time to get his brother in trouble and intentionally tries to get him hurt. He will tell him to do things that are very dangerous and then cry and say he didn't when confronted. I didn't want them around my son in the first place, but agreed to watch them while my aunts husband was in rehab because they had no where else to go. But my aunt will never admit when she's wrong and she would rather have her husband clean her house and take care of her children than fix her life. He does everything, all she does is go to work and do the fun things with her children, he disciplines them, feeds them, helps with schoolwork, cleans the house, etc. Right now there are so many drama triangles in my family. I'm freaking freaking with a kitchen sink that won't work and a colicky baby whose sick all the time. I'm losing my mind trying to maintain these relationships with my family. And the thing is, I know of some things that might help but none if them would ever hear me out. My fiance is my only saving grace. I don't know how to balance everything, and I'm so upset and this is the only place I can go that won't make the drama worse. I added the picture to hopefully make someone laugh. It gets funnier the longer you look. I think I'm going insane.