giving up for a while

Jessica
I can't do this anymore. I want a switch to go off in my head that makes me not care about whether or not we get pregnant. I want to just give up. Maybe it's not meant to be. 
My husband has 2 kids so I don't feel he's going through it the same way I am. 
This morning after one day being late, I got af and told him and he didn't say anything. He got up and continued to get ready. My feelings are hurt to say the least. And I'm starting to think I'm not supposed to have children. Maybe it's not in my cards of life. 😔😭😢😔😢