What the heck?!

Stephanie • 35. Married. Dog Mom. IVF with ICSI and MFI and now due 12/31/19 with our embaby!!! 🍍🙏🏻💫
Irregular cycle so it's hard to track anyhow.. 
Currently on cycle day 49, still nada. BFN's and no AF. Did anyone get a BFP with a first response early test vs a regular PT bc your levels weren't high enough? 
Going crazy over here and swearing I'm feeling pregnant! Is it really psychosis?? Help! Thanks!