feelings when finding out someone else is pregnant and not you?

Mrs.W • TTC #1 for 2 years now! After having an ectopic pregnancy last year so I am hoping my rainbow baby comes this year🌈
Is it awful to find no feelings when you find out someone is pregnant? Aren't you suppose to be happy or sad? Especially since you been trying for over 2 years. I just get an empty feeling of course I don't feel hate or nothing but I just feel blank when I find out someone is pregnant?