It helps but isn't fool proof. There's lots of days where I feel disconnected from the world, people and things going on around me. Sometimes I'll be in a social setting and once everybody is gone, I'll replay in my mind over and over what I was like around those people and upset myself. I negatively judge myself and get worked up thinking about how those people I was just with think of me now. I'm always thinking these people think I'm disgusting and an undeserving woman to my man. I have no idea what causes me to think this way and so negatively. I get hung up on these thoughts for days after I've seen somebody. It gets to the point where I psychically make myself sick thinking about all of this.

My mind has been torturing bf lately. I can no longer just shut off my thoughts 😕 I hardly even know how to explain and write down how I'm feeling. Sorry if my post doesn't make much sense, thank you for reading.