Ttc month 9

Looking for any recommendations on how to stay positive and not lose my mind as I welcome another damn period today after 9 months of trying for my #2. I am grateful and blessed with my first child, but my yearning for the second is still just so insane. Why is it taking so much longer for number 2? My doc won't consider testing until it's been a year trying. Dmeeijwnoflfjnajuxndoofyg. 
Can anyone relate or tell me to chill the f out? I'm just so frustrated.