all I can do is sit here and cry...

I'm only 15. I had a miscarriage late February... I took pregnancy tests and they came out positive then... The miscarriage happened. Only my boyfriend and my best friend know. I've talked about it so much but I still stay up at night and cry about it.  I feel so broken. I'm hurt. I wasn't trying to get pregnant but once I saw I was, even though I was scared, I started getting almost excited. I started looking at baby clothes, room ideas, and just baby stuff. 
I was supposed to go to bed at 10:00 it's now 11:50 and I've been crying this whole time. I'm not looking for attention. I just needed to get that out...