finding the right guy....

Alicia
Right!! I'm 17, 18 in like 4 weeks and I've never really had a relationship. My first kiss was when I was like 15 or 16, which I was kinda made to feel like was weird, everyone my age had their first kiss when they were like 10 or 12. Because of stuff like that and never having little month long relationships like my friends it's kinda been drummed into my head that I'm obviously not pretty enough or the girl guys look at for relationships. 
Well, the past few years every guy I've seemed to like never likes me back. Like at the moment there's this guy I work with and we've got so much in common, he's the sort of person you think is gunna be a right ass until you actually know him. We mess around and flirt a bit like he'll call me babe, but I don't know if it's real? Is he just messing? Sometimes well talks on snapchat and it's going fine and he'll just randomly stop replying? 
I know I'm only young and it's not the end of the world, honestly it doesn't seem like it. But in this day and age being nearly 18 and still a virgin is weird? I'm in no rush, it doesn't bother me. I just sometimes feel like the way it's going, I might never be loved. 
Just needed to get that off my chest😬❤️