Long story short. I was diagnose with endometriosis and got surgery for it. One Fallopian tube was blocked completely. After surgery tried a year naturally and nothing happened. So I did clomid. First round 50mg ( got one egg but connected to the blocked Fallopian tube). Second round 50mg nothing worked. By that time I was having a discomfort on my left arm. No pain. Just my arm tired. Had a couple of months of rest and tried one more time. This time 100mg but didn't work either. In the middle of that third round I notice my armpit swollen... didn't freaked out. They told me it could be the clomid so I waited. One day my arm discomfort extended to my neck and hand so called my GP. He was on vacation and told me to go to the er for an ultrasound. I did.... they not even checked my swollen armpit, which was the concern at that point, but they checked if I had a blood clot. They also did a CBC test and all was ok. My abs lymphs was only 0.3 higher.Next day went to my gynecologist and said it was nothing in my armpit and my boobs were ok. I asked her what my armpit thing was and she said " yeah, lymph nodes" and I told her that it have been a month! And she said to do CBC in 10 days. I did and went to my GP. Blood work was all normal and the GP touch my armpit and breast and he said he didn't feel any lymph nodes ( i didn't either! No lump in armpit just a little swollen comparing to the other one, no pain). He sent to me a breast cancer specialist ( which freaked me out. After last round of clomid I wanted to have a calm year, celebrate my 30th birthday in a fun way and do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> on January 2017). I felt that since then my life perspective changed. No sleep, sleeping pills not working, I made the mistake of googling. That just fed my stress.... gastritis came and depression too. One of the bad things I find here in the US is the amount of wait for everything. After almost 4 weeks got the appointment with the breast doctor. I was a disaster. Huge bags, shaking. She touched my breast and found a lump. Great..... she said that it seems like a cysts. Because it moved and it was rubbery and soft like a grape. Then she touched my armpit in every way possible. Comparing to the other one, laying down, standing up, arms to the side, raising my arms. She even had her eyes closed for a while touching both armpits at the same time and she didn't know what the he'll it was. She then said " I know you are young for this but I need you to have a bilateral diagnostic mammogram and an ultrasound. They will tell you that you are too young but I don't care. I need you to do this. Depending on your results I will see you soon or If not want a follow up on 3 months and if things are bothering you still I will order for you to have an MRI"

After that, of course.... I wanted to die by then. The wait was 2 more weeks. Sleep 0 hours. Not feeling hungry. I felt defeated mostly by my anxiety. The day came and they did ultrasound and mammogram and I exploded in tears. I couldn't help it anymore. The nice lady that did the mammogram told me everything looked clear. ( on top of that my period was near and they knew about it. But with al the googling I saw mixed messages saying that it was ok and that it wasn't when period was coming or with period). She said it was clear to calm myself down. That she knew my doctor that she is awesome and that she will have to see it too so I can have an official report. But that she and the doctor that was there in the mammogram and ultrasound, didn't saw anything. That lump or cyst or whatever it is didn't show and they tried a lot to see if it was there but nope. That gave me 40% of peace.... or that's what I thought.  It's Sunday and I am still scared about tomorrow my dr's call.  It could be many things.... like fat in my armpits, mammary tissue... idk! I still need an answer for this. But with all my research I found the case of Giuliana Rancic that gladly her dr pushed her to do a mommagram before the <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> and they found she had cancer. Like her, many women don't even have a family history of cancer ( there is none in my family). I still don't know what I have... it sounds is just nothing but this have open my eyes that it is extremely important to prevent. To do our annual checkups. To know our bodies and if we see something different to call our doctor without a doubt. I learned that a <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a> doesn't give you cancer BUT if you have a small tiny lump or something that is minimal... like a small undetected cancer that is stage 1, can become a stage 3-4 with the hormonal medication. The hormones feed this cancer making it develope to a bigger stage. 

Many doctors not even suggest it. Seriously, it doesn't cost to ask and suggest it. This is my advice. And even if you are not getting any <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a>, always please, check yourself. Breast self exams, etc. We can prevent it! I hope the best for you all and I seriously don't want this post to scare anyone ( well..wouldn't blame you. I'm a wreck of nerves) but like I said, I needed to give this advice and take it out of my chest. Better to prevent.

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Ps: another advice is "Do not google". For some reason the internet always takes you to the worst possible situation. I am guilty for doing it but that just makes. Your body so sick that I have wasted months of my life in fear, without sleeping and enjoying.