Weed...true discussion.

I had a dream last night that I smoked weed for the first time and it made me feel soo good. I have always wanted to try it but I've been scared! I have anxiety, depression, anger issues and more. I don't want to take pill's what so ever; I want to make a doctor appointment and do it legally but I'm not sure how to go about it. I start my new job working for my city soon and I don't want to ruin it by smoking. I just want to be happy I'm tired of being angry, stressed, depressed all the time.

My other concern are... my kid's; would they be able to smell it on me? Can they get contact high from it? I have a 3 year old and a 4 month old.