Today I asked my husband for a hug and just started crying. I'm so excited to be almost 9 weeks pregnancy with my rainbow after a missed miscarriage and ectopic behind me.  However, between feeling bloated all the time, dealing with constipation, having headaches daily and feeling foggy, battling between feeling starving and nauseous or super full and uncomfortable, and worrying about miscarriages (just because I worry) I'm drained. I cried because being sick sucks and then I cried even harder because I feel guilty for being sad. I have wanted this so badly and now I feel bad that I'm sad about being sick, like I should only be happy.