I could really use some encouragement. 😔

So, my boyfriend and I are, well I guess now were long distance. He's pre-Med and I am just starting my freshman year (I took a year off. I graduated in 15)  at college. He's in his last year. Anyways. We've been together for around 8 months. 

And yesterday was the most heartbreaking day I've ever experienced. I sent him a gif making a joke that was like "stop pretending I don't exist" he was playing basketball and I missed him. 

And he was like "I'm so sorry baby girl I haven't been texting you like I should" then later we were facetiming and he starts telling me how incredible I am. And that he doesn't deserve me that he doesn't give me enough time. Because of his studying. And I was like ??? Then he continues and was telling me he had been watching YouTube videos about couples that were torn apart because of med school. And he started tearing up. And was like "how can I even begin to do that to you? You deserve so much more. You deserve someone who can devote time to you when you're needing it. You need someone who is always able to be there for you. More than just a few texts a day and a FaceTime a week. I wish. I wish so badly I can be that man for you but I can't" and I was bawling at this point and I asked him what he was saying. And he was like "I just can't do this at this point in my life." 

My heart was shattered. I've cried so much the last few days. I barely contained myself for classes. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I'm miserable. 

He's still texting me checking up on me. And he snapchatted me with a message that just said "I just wanted to keep this going" 

And I just don't know what to think. I'm bawling just writing this. I'm just so lost. 😔😔😖