sexuality help?

Vanessa
I'm bi curious? I've always been turned on by thinking about eating a girl out... but whenever it comes to fingering I always gross out I hate doing it to myself... I dunno does that mean anything? Ive kissed a couple of girls and it's like kissing a dude I dunno I just love everyone I guess.... also I'm in a relationship with a guy and he knows I'm bi curious and he's okay with that. I just feel bad that I want to figure it out but I don't want to fall for a girl and then not have him... I guess I'm scared that I might like girls better and then leave him because it's not fair to him... am I the only one in this boat... I probably am....