old to be pregnant

Yda • 💗💙👨‍👩‍👧‍👦👧🏻🌸🌈🌸
Im 38 yo, 4 weeks pregnant, 2 kids and 3 miscarriages. Im a nerve reck because of my age, my elevated blood pressure, and recurrent miscarriage. Even Im high risk the Obgyn cant see me until I hit the 8w. 
Im cramping light and intermittent, I cant sleep, Im so tired. How do you deal with your emotions?