Time to come out and say it....😒💔😫🤔

Ever since I was very young iv always had "OCD" it's gotten worse tho now that I'm pregnant.. I have done some very bad things in my marriage. I'm not proud of them but we're getting through them.. but since I was little iv always had some OCD problems like 97% of the time I tap my fingers or do something with my hands along with whatever I say out loud or in my head. I hide it from my husband tho. Another one is I talk to myself and answer myself as if I was talking to somebody that is right by me. I also feel like if I do something wrong or forget to do something that something is going to happen to me. Another is if I do something too slow or not fast enough that something bad is going to happen to me. Last one that  I can think of is there's something in my head which I feel is the devil telling me if I don't do this or that or since I did that im going to have bad luck with something. I don't know why I do this stuff it bothers me. Iv always had extreme anxiety iv been on meds iv talked to people but nothing has helped. It's stressing me out.. I'm currently 16 weeks and 3 days  pregnant and having all this stress on my is not good I know 😒 if there's anybody else out there that's been going through something like this for a long time please please comment below and tell me about your OCD.