Okay... the deployment wasn't exactly a huge surprise. We were told though he was staying the extra 3-4 weeks so he wouldn't miss the birth of our first baby. Paperwork and everything had been done and prepared. I know first hand nothing is set in stone.

We just found out yesterday my husband would be leaving in about a week. No warning.

Now I've never been one to have anxiety or get depressed or be emotional but I cannot calm down to save my life. I don't even know how to grasp my emotions right now. How do you cope and calm yourself? I don't want to make this harder on my husband (or the baby). Before we found this out, I wasn't worried about labor. Now I'm petrified. Yeah its going to hurt, but what if something happens to me? My poor baby will be alone!

I'm so angry and scared. Frankly I just wanted to vent.