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Anyway, later I finally went into the emergency room and did not pass any large tissue from that point on. I just asked for painkillers, I usually am very good with pain, but the fact that I knew I was miscarrying right at the moment I finally became happy for the pregnancy. Because of the lack of a fetus and asking for meds this the doctor just looked down his nose and asked if I was "the kind of person that takes midol during periods". When I said yes (I mean, I work. It's convenient not to be in pain all day when I have to work) he just condescendingly said "yea, that makes sense then".

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That makes me scared because I really want to have natural birth. I know that it'll hurt like nothing else, but I always felt that joy and motivation of it would help me through.

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Am I weak because I just wanted to drown out the pain of a miscarriage.