Head knows I'm out 99% but my heart screams for that 1% what if

Alison
I'm on CD39, did not ovulate as of CD28, confirmed with blood work, but had signs maybe I did 4-5 days ago, no definitive proof. I should have already gotten AF on CD30, haven't had a cycle this long in over 2 years. I should accept I'm out, I keep expecting AF but every day she doesn't show the hope builds. I'm having blood work done on Thursday that will confirm things one way or another. Even tho I know what the tests will show I can't stop the hope from building. I just hope the crash landing isn't too bad. 2.5 years ttc with 2 miscarriages and no explanations.. Just needed to vent. This sucks.