miracle baby

Just over 4 months ago I experienced my first miscarriage.. I was 5 weeks pregnant. I was dumped by my then boyfriend while in the hospital so my whole world shattered. 
I am now with an amazing man and we both feel ready for my miracle baby and his first. 
I'm so excited to say that my period is late, I just have this gut feeling that weir pregnant but I'm to scared to take the test just incase it's not my miracle baby, 
Just after some advice about how to cope xx