starting over

Alea • 💙Baby boy born March 2018 : Baby girl born September 2019 💜
Two weeks ago I did something I never thought I had the strength to do. I left my emotionally abusive SO. In the last 4 months it wasn't uncommon for me to hear "you are heartless" "bitch" "dumbass" "stupid" and much more at least twice a week. We started fighting more and more and when I say fighting it is him pissed off screaming at me. He started to belittle my family and my friends. One night he actually hit me and that was when I had enough. But leaving was so much harder than I thought it would be. We talked  he day I left because he wanted to know why... I told him about all the abuse he was putting me through and his response... " I didn't call you that today"... I couldn't believe it... because he didn't say that to me that day it made it okay in his eyes. I put my ring on the counter and walked out the front door. Since then I have cried a lot and it has been hard. I love him and I know I always will, but even though we had good times I know I can't put myself through that anymore.