it's official

Well it's official. After having another talk with my husband. He has decided that me working at night is too much for him to be home with another child. Although we have two girls, it is a great desire for me to have another. I'm a full time nurse and whether I work dayshift or night, 12 hour shifts leaves him alone to take care of our girls. I feel like my heart has been ripped out, but I guess this means no babies in our future.