Feeling no love

I am 7 weeks 5 days along with my first doc appointment this Wednesday !I have been feeling low & super depressed .. I have been married for almost 4 years now( we have a traditional Indian marriage wherein we were introduced by parents but made the decisions ourselves to get married).This is a rainbow baby( miscarriage 4 months ago )! I have been eagerly waiting for a blessed baby but suddenly feel so guilty for  bringing a child in this world with a relationship with no world ..My husband is obsessed with his mother & doesn't not have the capacity love anyone beyond her ! He is a perfectly nice person but I feel no love or affection from him .. Sometime feel that what will I answer this child if I decide to part ways in future.. Sorry about the rant but it already feels great to have said this out aloud