I want to, but I want to wait as well

Okay, so my boyfriend and I have been dating for over half a year. We have talked about having sex, I'm 16, he's 18, And waiting until we are married or have consent. I want to be able to say that I made love to him in our own apartment or hotel or house. I want it to be intimate and beautiful❤️ but sometimes when we are together it is really difficult to control ourselves...
        I mean we are teenagers and we do have hormones. The most we have done is him eating me or fingering me. That's it. We have not had sex🙏🏽thankfully. It's not that I don't want to, because trust me, I do! 😫 but I want this realationship to mean something way more. 
         We are in love. This has been my longest relationship and I do love him. When he's hurt I cry. When he is not around I think about us cuddling. ☺️😍 I know he loves and cares for me to because he cried and freaked out when he had a "nightmare about us breaking up" <--- his words. Shortly after I had the same nightmare and freaked out and cried. 
    I don't know what to do🙊 we've had so many chances to make love and we didn't. So that shows we want to wait, right? 😔