I just want...

I just want to feel normal.
I just want to not be a verbally abusing wife.
I just want to feel like my husband still thinks I'm attractive. 
I just want my husband to pursue me. 
I just want to be a good mom. 
I just want to stop being angry.
I just want to stop being frustrated all the time. 
I just want to be happy. 
I just want to feel loved.