this is so hard

Why is the whole process of going to college so fucking draining and depressing? Applying, not having enough money, and just stressing that I'm not going to be accepted anywhere. I'm starting to just feel like I'm never going to get out of this town and my situation at home. I absolutely love school. All I want is to get away from here and learn. It just feels like I'm stuck here forever and this whole process just makes me so sad