abusive relationships ...
I just need to get this off my chest so... hate don't hate, don't really matter i guess.
So I'm 15 years old and I've been in two abusive relationships. They never got physical but I was constantly being yelled at and questioned. I was told not to talk to my closest friends. In one he threatened to kill himself if I left him. The other actually cheated on me after yelling at me for months about not being able to talk to anyone.
After awhile I adapted to realize that I was wrong all the time.
"Why the fuck are you talking to him I told you not to you fucking slut"
"I'm sorry it won't happen again. Please stop being mad at me..."
It's been 10 months since my last abusive relationship and sadly I still have that same mindset ... I just apologize for everything and it makes people think I have no meaning behind the word sorry... it's just so irritating. Also I'm really quiet now. Before then I was so quirky and happy and I was the bright eyed teenager who had a glorious future! But now I put myself down a lot ... today I was just thinking and out of nowhere I thought "I'm gonna be such a terrible lawyer why am I even trying"
I only thought that though, because I'm so quiet and lawyers are supposed to speak up. I can't do that, I can barely speak loud enough for my teachers to hear me.
I'm trying to get better though, alright. My new boyfriend loves me so much and he treats me like a princess. I'm just always so scared of the worst.
I just needed to get this off my chest and I though <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> would be the best place to do so ... thanks for reading
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