PRAYER REQUEST PLS READ 😭😰

I know most have heard that the end is near for a long time but am I the only one who feels like it's just around the corner. I just got a panic attack like 5 minutes ago because I heard a loud trumpet noise outside and went into a 5 minute prayer because I got scared ! I feel it in my soul like it feels like we have seconds left ... I've been feeling like this for a while now but not to this extent... I just feel it coming. I admit I haven't been a good Christian and even when I am I sometimes have this feeling that it's the end and I'm going to hell 😰 I'm super lukewarm at the moment especially now that I need to study and come from school tired... I've just really distanced myself from God lately and I feel like I've let him down. I don't go to church so that doesn't help- my parents aren't all that Christian ... Due to this I don't know what church to attend and have no one to take me or teach me about the bible and God, I go to a catholic school and do not identify as catholic at al. So basically if I want to be Christian I need to force myself . If you've read this far into my post I ask that you pray for me if you have the time. I'd really really appreciate it 😊❤️