Kind of a long post. I'm a college freshman. I know, I've heard it all. I have plenty of time to find what I want to do. I just like knowing things before I go into it, so I'm a bit of an extreme planner.

My major is currently pre Journalism, because I'm an excellent writer but I was told not to go the English major route. I'm told it's useless unless you want to be an English teacher, which I very much don't want. And doing the homework in my English classes and writing papers is making me realize that I don't really enjoy it as much as I thought I did. Just because I'm good at it doesn't mean I like it. I've come to realize that.

I try to think of things I enjoy and I'm honestly kind of a plain person. All I know I want for sure in my life is my boyfriend (been together 3 years) and children. I keep hesitating when choosing a career because I want to be with my future children. I never want to have to miss anything. I don't want a job that will keep me away. I feel irrational for that because I want to be able to support myself. And my boyfriend always says I don't need to stress over something(children) that we don't even have yet. But you get where I'm coming from, right? I feel like it's a maternal instinct. Not saying anything bad about working moms because I will probably end up working anyway. You get where I'm coming from though.

After I put this thought to rest and convinced myself that I need to just do what I can for now and I will figure out the future when it gets here, I came back to the thought I keep having from the very beginning. I want to teach young children. Preschool, to be exact. I talked to my dad about this and while he said that's fine, I should do something that will actually support me. He says $20-30,000 a year isn't enough.

I know I should do what I want and not care about other people's opinions but it's really hard. Everyone expects more from me but I'm not the type that could actually be a lawyer or a doctor or even a big-time writer. I like simplicity.

Secondary problem to this is after my associates, I'm not sure if I want to go on. I don't handle stress very well and I'm at community college. I couldn't imagine a university. In my state, you can teach preschool or be a teachers aid with just and associates. Thats a whole other issue. I'm sorry for the long post, but any advice would be great. Thank you.