Last year I fell pregnant with my second in September after having no period since June 2015. I was so excited to give my husband his first child. My little peanut stopped growing around 6 weeks. I miscarried and had a DnC at 10 weeks in November. It was very hard for my husband and I. AF returned to what is normal for me a month later on schedule. We got matching tattoos for our angel baby in March. In mid May I had another BFP. It was one of the scariest and most exciting things of our lives. Though we didn't get our hopes up because I was bleeding the whole time. It was an ectopic pregnancy and we just waited it out. I didn't need medical intervention other then some pain meds. I finally stopped bleeding mid July two weeks after I had passed the baby. And now, AF still hasn't shown up 3 months after. I'm not pregnant, I've taken many tests.

I'm not sure why I'm posting. Maybe to finally share my story. Maybe to see if anyone else is in the same boat. Maybe to ask what I should do.

I feel like less of a woman because I can't give my husband his first child. But his 16 year old cousin got pregnant on accident and doesnt know who the father is, and his 56 year old uncle is just about to be a first time dad with his new wife. My close friend os expecting her third.

I can't be around them. I'm just so uncomfortable around them now.