another one that isn't me

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A friend shared with me today that she's 8 weeks pregnant. She wanted to tell me before she announces in a few weeks because she didn't want to catch me by surprise. We've been trying for as long as they've been married and have lost 2 pregnancies in the last 6 mo. (ectopic and mmc). This will be their second child. 
And while I'm happy for them and wish them no ill will, I'm also devestated and jealous and throwing myself a grand pity party. Because I'm tired of grieving and crying and hurting and worrying. I'm jealous that she can tell anyone at 8 weeks because at that point we'd just told our parents during our second pregnancy, and within 2 weeks we were calling with different news. I'm jealous that she can trust things will be ok for her, because if I do manage to use my 1 remaining tube and get pregnant, I can't trust that the shoe won't drop every minute of every day. 
#f*ckloss