I'm so not sure what it is wrong with me. I had my shower yesterday afternoon. I had about 65 people invited and maybe 25-30 came which is fine. However, my mother-in-law and sister-in-law didn't come which was really hurtful to me. Then at least 15 people who said they were coming didn't show up. It was sort of annoying but I kind of felt relieved. Usually I am a complete social butterfly and I'm very extroverted, but yesterday I was overwhelmed, stressed out, and wanted to leave and go cry in a corner somewhere. I have zero idea why, but the idea of all that attention on me and my unborn baby boy made me so reserved and quiet. It was ladies only and I just kept thinking about my husband the whole time and how much I needed him with me. Then the time came to open gifts... For months my sisters have told me not to buy too much because people will get you more than you think you need. They also kept talking me out of buying a swing even though I found several good deals. It made me think maybe they were going in on one together. Well, I do not want to sound spoiled and ungrateful but 90%, and I am not exaggerating, of the gifts I received were not from the registry. I am now on my last week of work, going down to one income, 6 weeks or so from my due date and feel completely unprepared. I'm missing so many things I need. This is my first baby. I'm lucky we have a crib, dresser, and glider! I bought the car seat and stroller too! I still need so much though. I have no bath tub, towels, burp rags, bibs, bottles, wash cloths, changing pad, and so much more I can't think of. I'm so overwhelmed. I just wish I would have trusted my own instincts more and got more the last several months, rather than listening to what I thought was solid advice. I feel bad for feeling so selfish and spoiled and I just don't feel myself lately. Has anyone else's personality sort of changed during pregnancy? I'm honestly thinking of talking to my doctor about it Friday. My mother had depression after two of her babies and I want to make sure that I take care of my self in case it's going to be something like that. I'm also already a little sad this pregnancy is almost over. I've really enjoyed being pregnant and the idea of having it end does make me a little sad. However, I can't wait to love on my sweet little baby boy! We have prayed for him for such a long time and we just can't wait to finally be a family of 3! Sorry for venting! I just don't know why I feel this way.