setting up for disappointment

Jacqueline
Every. Damn. Month. Been TTC for 8 months. Had an HSG in early October. Hubby is getting tested after this cycle. 
Every. Damn. Month. Looking into every symptom like a nut. Everyone around me getting pregnant and onto their second or third. Why can't it be me? 
Every. Damn. Month. Hoping and praying and wondering. Living in a perpetual state of am I or aren't it? Sorry. Had to vent!! I get soooooooo sad every month it's just crazy.