Yet another month of nothing but disappointment and having to be happy for the couple who hadn't been trying for long or weren't trying at all. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong. Christmas will b a year. I'm not ready to go to the doctor. I'm so afraid they will tell me I'm exactly like my aunt. I'm already so much like her and all I want is a baby of my own. I feel like I'm having less sex with my fiancé because of each month being a disappointment. Why have sex if I'm not gonna get pregnant? I feel so discouraged. Even when I try and post and figure out new things to try, nobody comments, nobody truly cares .... I'm just completely depressed and wore out emotionally to the bone. There's nothing left.