Sick & Tired of Bfn's..!!!!

So I'm now 11dpo...AF due Friday! Tested yesterday afternoon & with fmu this morning both times with a Frer & what did I get...?...Big fat negatives!! Having trawled through old & new posts i am clinging on to the tinsy bit of hope that Iv just tested too early but I really thought the early result would of picked something up by 11dpo (today) if I actually had conceived this cycle??!! Usually this close to AF my b**bies are really sore but actually don't feel sore at all, creamy cm (sorry tmi) & nauseous most of the time for the past 4/5 days. It's my first borns 8th birthday today & she wished for a brother or sister but maybe she'll just have to wait a little longer 😔😔 Sorry for long a$$ post but just feeling really deflated today!! Keeping fingers crossed that it might just be too early to test but we shall see. Ttc (for some) is like a taste of hell on earth Mehhhhh!!! Baby dust to us all 💕