We lost our baby boy last year. I had an invasive surgery to help with our next pregnancy being successful. I have lots of complications with my pregnancies so i can't work during pregnancie and is strongly rec not to work even while TTC. To make a long story short my husbands job has been kinda up and down and he just sits there not doing anything or trying to find other work. His pay is great when it's steady and allows for me to be home. But the last while it's been pretty bad. All he does is complain and does nothing. We are older so we were going to try one last time before the new year but now cuz of this it's not going to happen and I'm not going to get my baby. I have the baby room half done with a beautiful stroller waiting. And it just tears me apart walking by knowing I'll never have my own baby to put in there. I'm just truly heartbroken and truly didsapointed.