In need of company. Problem or wanting just to feel loved.

Now I've never been in a bad breakup before , my husband and I are having a divorce because he was abusive and I tried so hard to make it work.

Now I'm 29+6 pregnant with his son, we live in different countries. He lives in the US I live in the UK. He works for the US army , I kinda wish I'd have reported his behaviour!! But nothing was going to change him

I wanted answers from him about why hr abused me and he denied being that way. Made out I was the crazy one who needs help and called me a hurt little child so I got annoyed... Gave him some of many examples where he was abusive and all he did was laugh 😧😧 he said he has apparently apologized before but refuses to do it again just to boost my ego...what a dickhead!

It was all very very draining !

I don't love myself but I know I'm a lovely , caring , sweet, loyal person and I just want to find someone to take care of me. Ever since my horrible ordeal and now being pregnant I can't bare the thought of being alone.. I feel like I need attention, not just of anyone though just I wish I had a man who generally knew me and loved me and obviously that isn't happening so I'm at a loss.

Any tips what I could do to get past this ??😕😕