I don't know what to do. I am 12 and have been diagnosed with severe depression. My meds don't work, and we don't have insurance to get new ones. I get bullied everyday, and I am so sick of it. Ever since I visited my dad two summers ago, I have been having dreams of him raping me. And it feels so real, I end up vomiting almost every morning (and no, I never had sex). I don't know if it actually happened. I have been cutting, trying to stop. But no coping skills help (music sometimes helps). I have also been diagnosed with OCD and everyone stares at me like I am an alien when I go through the door five times, or correct certain things, or when I walk in specific ways in certain areas. I moved to a new state so I have no one here to support me, and I just want to end it all. I don't know what to do. My grades are amazing, but everything else seems to be crumbling. Help