Maybe? Do I have one?? I can't tell anyone, if I do

Could this be possible?? I honestly can't decide for myself but I feel like I'm developing an eating disorder. I don't feel I'm under eating or over eating, but I eat mostly carp. You know junk type stuff. It's become something to cope with anxiety and slight depression, so what do I Do? I go to counseling and I try to workout, but it's hard to actually do it when it's just you, that and I've had surgery about 5 months ago so I can't "go hard" like I used to when I work out so I dont know what to do. I also take laxatives to help drop a lb. Or so or if I need to lose weight really fast. I hate myself after I eat anything bad but I feel like I can't stop I'm 163lbs and I've never been over 160, I'm also 5'2 so I'm way too fat for my body amd my job