Breastfeeding/relactating

Hey guys, I had a baby about 3 months ago and chose to formula feed from the get go due to my post partum depression. I felt completely detached at first but now am feeling great and regretting not breastfeeding and missing out on that bond with my baby. Has anyone else been through this? I'm having a hard time forgiving myself and can't decide whether to let it go and try with my next baby or if I should try to relactate? Please keep any hateful comments to yourself. I love my baby so much and only want what's best for her