Is it just me

Me and my friend met up with a guy from work. who had a friend called John. John is into white girls.  which is obviously  fine. i am into skinny blondies myself. But i felt so offended by the fact that we are a group of black people. which i like coz i rarely see my african brothers and sisters in sydney. but he was so distant and rude. he would pretend to go to the toilet and just sit a few seats away from us. the kind of guy that tells you his name and walks away with out asking you. i was shocked but also very offended so were all my girlfriends. i was even more offended than when white people are racist towards me. because i started doubting myself  like is my pussy too dark to be attractive. or my hair isn't soft enough. Because this african guy was repulsed by us.